You know, for a while, I was doing a really good job of keeping my stress level down. I always managed to take a moment and breathe, and think "Everything is ok, Genevieve, just take a few breaths, it's not the end of the world." Then I would think about the children in Africa that I fight for, and how they are worrying about where they will get their next meal, and if their parents are dead, and if they'll ever feel safe, and I think my problems aren't worth the stress I waste on them.
I haven't been remembering that very well this week.
I've been so stressed out my head hurts and I'm tired all the time. I hope that this weekend will soften the blow, but today alone is so hectic I can't possibly fit everything in. I have to miss half of my art class to go this stupid orthopedist appointment that I don't even need, I have to help a friend at 6, lingerie shower at 7, James is coming into town and I have a movie night with Bud later tonight. All of this on top of the drawing project I am nowhere NEAR completing, what is essentially two weeks of French homework that I have let backup because every time I sit down to do it I feel so stupid and useless that I give up, another 2 weeks of math homework that I ahve an identical reaction to, half of a novel to read in an English class that makes me want to gouge my teacher's eyes out, and trying to raise money for an orphanage in Tanzania although the University I attend will do all that it can to prevent me from doing so.
All I want is for all of this to go away, and I can fly to Europe and watch the ballet for eternity.
Oh, did I mention I still ahve about 30 hours of work on the church murals?
AAAGGGHHH.....
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